What am I still thinking right now. Anyway it is not gonna be work my dear friend Jacky Lee

I didnt know how to express my feeling right now. Its already a year ago, and i thought that I was good to be handling this issue and I was not for yesterday. By the way that you treat me I still will thinking to improve our relationship again. I know I am very selfishness but this is the true feeling I had right now. I know I dun have the reason to ask you to stay. Thus, I choose to leave. Nevertheless, why am I still doing all this..... Anyway I might need sometimes more to stay cool with you in order to get my self still can remain as a friend with you. I am so sorry for the past that I had did to you, if I ever got the chance to choose it again. However its no point talking about this because its already no chance as I know it very well. This is the reason that I only can express my feeling through here. You know what my dear friend. For me last time I will be the one who mind those ppl that having relationship with you and have done somethings more than that "sex". However, the moment that you told me you have did that to him, the 1st thinking that was came into my mind is. If I ever got the chance to be recover with you about the relationship between us, all this it is not gonna be important anymore. This is the surprise that I had to myself also. The power of love its blind, and the true feeling of love is wish each other live better than self. Thus, at the end here I would still like to say wish you have a great future and thanks for letting me to know myself better. As I told you, u have make me so impulsive for yesterday. Sound so ridiculous but it is true feeling too. Anyway I would like to present my greatest bless with love to you. Once upon a time I thought that we are not gonna work, and yet that i asked, the reason we argue it is because of her that I never thought through. It is the reason for you to be angry with me but u didnt. From the yesterday by the moment I sending you back home and just right in front of your house that you shown me you still wearing the necklace that I have gave it to you 1 year ago. I am so touching that dun know what to tell you. By the same moment, I seriously got a hard feeling that call you to stay with me. Maybe it is because of shameful and I know that the outcome it is gonna be rejected so I didnt. Or maybe I still feel like having you this friend rather than you will leave me alone after getting to be rejected. This is all about my feeling and thought. Anyway, god bless my true friend.